niledelta said:Did a 14-month stint up until about a year and a half ago (my username has changed since then. Original post was #2000 – https://www.rooshvforum.com/thread-30625-post-1678288.html#pid1678288 ). I'm getting back on the wagon. I keep telling myself I don't have a drinking problem, but what is seen as normal drinking today is dysfunctional, at least as I am coming to see things. On Sunday I experienced a reminder of the wickedness of the allure of alcohol, and I have decided to protect myself and build a wall. My life's ambition is to start a family, and I don't believe I can maintain a relationship with alcohol, along with managing a family, in spite of the lies I repeatedly tell myself.
Have met too many good men who have given up drinking to think that I should know better. Drinking is something that encourages me to dissociate from whatever feelings I have, happy, sad, anxious or otherwise. It retards me, weighs me down, puts the brakes on my spirit. I need to unshackle myself. I originally planned to just give it up for Lent 2020 but I will now commit to a year.
niledelta, thank you for the post. Is February 25, 2020 your start date?