H1N1 said:Good man, you've pushed yourself. No doubt that training session was a bit of a gut check, but you're making progress now. Tomorrow is probably going to suck. I want you to try to eat everything you can in the meantime.
I read your post in the game forum, and it's none of my business, but I don't think you should beat yourself up too much emotionally. You're in a rough place with the whole no job, no girl, new to weights thing, but you can spread yourself too thin getting worked up about them all. Easier said than done, I know, but in your shoes I wouldn't worry so much about the girls for the time being. If your self-esteem isn't great, you can't expect to come across at your best, regardless of who you are talking to.
When you get a job, whatever job, even if it's as a barman (get paid, talk to girls), you'll have more emotional energy available to worry about the smaller details, like the role girls play in your life. If at that point we can get you along the road with solid training, you'll also have some nice muscles to go with the confidence that comes from having a job. More importantly, these muscles, because of the style of training we're doing, will not just be for show - you will be fit and strong - an effective human being, more effective than most around you. There is a type of confidence that comes with knowing you look nice, and it's great. But there is a far greater confidence in knowing you can perform like a beast, and push yourself to keep improving.
Just as with training, it doesn't pay to chase many goals at once, it may also be the case that you are trying to address too many aspects of your life that you're unhappy with at once.I'd never knock anyone for trying to improve themselves, but what I would say is that sometimes the best way of improving multiple aspects of your life is to focus on one or two and excel at them, which tends to have a knock on effect.
Again, I know you haven't asked for a life guru or any of that new age shit, but the purpose of the kind of training you're doing here is to build your physical and mental resilience, and give you the deep rooted confidence that comes with being an objectively valuable human.
It's cool. I don't have any unrealistic expectations of privacy given the public domain.
When I'm not in quite such a stupor I'll give your words a more thorough once-over.
Also I just realized that every night I've been eating spag bol dinner there haven't been any vegetables with it. Need to remedy that.
Anyway, what's the marching orders for tomorrow?