I was talking to an ex of mine and found out she was getting married. We've been together for 4 years and lately I was thinking how we shoud've got married. She would've been a good wife and I broke up with her because I didn't want to commit to her at the time(while she did). So I was pretty gutted to find out that she is getting married. She's not perfect, I don't suffer from oneitis and I'm not afraid that I won't find another women, but as I'm lately steering more and more towards traditionalism, I realize how big a mistake letting her go was. I also believe that man has a limited binding ability and every broken bond diminishes a man in way, making him less. So yeah feeling the blues at the moment. But also have clarity for the future. Next bond will be for life.