I don't know. I have never done such a sad sack thing in my life but I am just beat up right now. Earlier this year I was rejected for a job that I thought I was competitive for, it really felt like my last chance. I'm about to finish school with a respectable gpa, but again, it doesn't feel like enough. Everything feels like a waste of time, My military career, which is a big part of me, feels like Ieft early and left a lot undone. I work a semi-skilled job for a good small company that pays the bills but that is about it. I just feel like I have been banging my head against the wall, I'm losing it, I need a good scrap or someone to smack some sense into me.