I would like to counter your post.Your post kind of sounds like Stockholm Syndrome.
Stockholm syndrome, psychological response wherein a captive begins to identify closely with his or her captors, as well as with their agenda and demands.
This is what you are essentially saying, “If you follow God, you believe that God is the one who puts you in this sh*th*l*. God works in a mysterious way, you know. And you might get slaughtered, you might have to endure the suffering and the pain. Oh, and don’t forget God loves you. All the suffering is for the greater good”.
When reading the bible many references are made to pain. Many come down to endurance and that we don't see the full picture.
1 Peter 2:19-23 NIVFor it is commendable if someone bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because they are conscious of God. But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God. To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps. “He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth.” When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.
Christ set an example, that you can suffer.
At first Job bore these calamities with amazing submission: "The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord . . . Shall we receive good at the hand of the Lord, and shall we not receive evil?"
But as the misery drug out over the months, Job wavered in his confidence that God was for him. In defending himself against the bad theology of Eliphaz, Bildad, and Zophar, he said things about God that were not true. He began to insist on his own righteousness at the expense of God's justice
Do you really know what is good Zeroshame? Might it be gods plan? Do you trust god?
I have personally travelled a lot in most cases with good intent, but there is a presumption that I know what is good for me. In myself I spotted restlessness, I need to fix it, i. need to fix it now, if I live in X, if I have Y, if i do Z. Life will be better.
Is life really so hard now, that you need to flee? Or is it just running after the same emotions over and over again?
To some this post might sound like a plea for inaction or a stockholm syndrome.
But the contrary is true. It is a plea for something our society has forgotten and the bible points to us to over and over again.
Endurance and trusting gods plan.
How about spending 50% of your time on god, endurance of pain and 50% on fixing. And not 99.9% on fixing? What did all this fixing bring us and society?
Anyhow wish you all a great day!