Benoit said:
A 'traumatic' childhood, spending his formative years on the edges of society in punk bands, and seeing his best friend shot to death in front of him... All these combined created a rootless being who's willing to take a stand against society but deeply wants to be wanted.
I've guarantee you my childhood was just as rough as Rollins', death included. We're very similar guys - highly-driven, restless and physical - and a lot of his self-motivation spiels are solid advice, but our outlooks vastly differ on the world and our relation to it. Why is that?
He carries the SJW / Degenerate idea that you're permanently-defined and scarred by your traumas, rather than developing healthy coping skills that let you carry the burden without collapsing from despair or developing anti-social personality disorders, such as his elitist / intellectual posturing barely masking his self-loathing. For a guy who travels and claims to have met more people than anyone he knows, he has a love of stereotyping others when it suits his politics.
My
grandmother saw more violent death during the war years than Rollins, and was a charming woman who loved life, community and family. She saw the worst of what people were capable of, yet continued to believe in their best.
Trauma doesn't need to scar and define you. True strength is taking the violent blows without letting them poison your soul, and remaining open to the possibility of goodness in other people. This is the war I'm constantly fighting, and there's been a shift in wider culture over the last 15 years towards suspicious, anti-social pessimism, which is making positivity a harder state to remain in. To be honest, I sometimes think this board is a bad influence on me.
I'd guess Rollins was mentally-damaged before Joe Cole was shot. He strikes me as someone who uses the size iron gives you to shield himself from contact with other people. Coupled with his cheerleading for feminism whilst being uninterested in emotionally-connecting with a women; the use of weights as protection and the hatred of alpha male masculinity; and I'd suspect you're looking at a guy who was a sexually-abused child, which would explain the relentless gay cheerleading, because if gay is positive and normalised, his trauma isn't shameful, particularly as some abused men who consider themselves as being heterosexual fall into a pattern of trying to recreate the phantom of their abuse, never identifying it as 'gay' sex.
The human mind is a fascinating, terrible thing.