What is the specific problem? Lack of faith around you?I'm having a difficult time navigating this from "being faithful" (you all know I talk about faithfulness a lot) point of view. My area is awful (gonna move), the churches have priests who are holy people but feel cornered or have no desire to stand up to the % of crazies for whom after a year it is clear no action will ever be enough, and even when I can go to services that are orthodox (I do) I am a sort of outsider (which I don't totally mind, but it feels so transient and less community). The evil one is everywhere and I sense more than ever the atomization of modern life. I don't want to make excuses, so I'll keep struggling, but I have to convey this if not just to stay healthy. It's pretty sad to know a part of you is incomplete, but perhaps the routine and cookie cutter attendance and obedience I was used to was something I took for granted; it seems at least partially true that that was the case.