I'd 2nd redbeard. You go to learn, and discern your intent. It's a concrete action which is better in your case because you need to balance the knowledge with getting out there.RCIA introductory meeting at the local parish is in two days. I haven't registered and am still being indecisive. Does the fact that I don't feel an overwhelming urgency imply that I'm not ready? I don't think it would be ideal to just keep reading Christian books indefinitely, but years of being a NEET pulls me in that direction and the memevirus precautions are offputting.