R.G.Camara
Kingfisher
I broke a few weeks ago my streak of no pron. I watched hours of hardcore porn after being clean from it nearly for a year, and clean from masturbating to it for 4+ years.
I realized why: I've let myself backslide. Let me explain.
When I first tried no faps, I found it too hard to go cold turkey. So I first decided no watching porn. I made myself an out though: I could masturbate to memories of old porn I recalled, but not any new porn or images. The purpose was to divorce the link in my brain between orgasm and the porn movie as much as possible. This was successful, as by doing so I was able to tone down my masturbatory urges and begin streaks of no fap.
Although I'd cut porn out, I began to look at Twitter accounts of porn stars I'd liked previously, and of course many of them post nude/suggestive clad photos of themselves or else video clips that I'd "accidentally" watch. Or I'd look at ads for escorts, which I used in the past; these, too, portrayed women in provocative poses in little to no clothing.
Although I didn't masturbate to these images, they triggered memories of old porn I'd enjoyed, especially with the porn sluts whose Twitter accounts I watched. So then I found it harder and harder to keep up a streak of no faps, but couldn't understand why. Then when I broke and just watched and j.o.'d to porn on my screen a few weeks ago, I was confused.
Now I get it: while many of the Twitter /escort ads I saw weren't porn for the most part, they were "porn to me", because they triggered masturbatory behavior and memories.
So I'm back on the wagon. No Twitter accounts of porn sluts or escort ads to trigger memories.
Wish me luck! And beware the slippery slope!
I realized why: I've let myself backslide. Let me explain.
When I first tried no faps, I found it too hard to go cold turkey. So I first decided no watching porn. I made myself an out though: I could masturbate to memories of old porn I recalled, but not any new porn or images. The purpose was to divorce the link in my brain between orgasm and the porn movie as much as possible. This was successful, as by doing so I was able to tone down my masturbatory urges and begin streaks of no fap.
Although I'd cut porn out, I began to look at Twitter accounts of porn stars I'd liked previously, and of course many of them post nude/suggestive clad photos of themselves or else video clips that I'd "accidentally" watch. Or I'd look at ads for escorts, which I used in the past; these, too, portrayed women in provocative poses in little to no clothing.
Although I didn't masturbate to these images, they triggered memories of old porn I'd enjoyed, especially with the porn sluts whose Twitter accounts I watched. So then I found it harder and harder to keep up a streak of no faps, but couldn't understand why. Then when I broke and just watched and j.o.'d to porn on my screen a few weeks ago, I was confused.
Now I get it: while many of the Twitter /escort ads I saw weren't porn for the most part, they were "porn to me", because they triggered masturbatory behavior and memories.
So I'm back on the wagon. No Twitter accounts of porn sluts or escort ads to trigger memories.
Wish me luck! And beware the slippery slope!