I feel sick and I've been burning with hatred for so long. I've suppresed it for so long but I just broke down. I hate him so much for what he did to me. I think I've finally lost it and I'm going insane because suddenly the floodgates have opened and I can't stop thinking about something I I haven't thought about for a long time. I hate him so much. There's nothing I can do to heal and I'll be a broken man for the rest of my life after what he did to me. I hate him so much. I just don't know what to do. Alcohol isn't working any more. What can I do to be normal?