It's that 5G.
Ugh! My heart goes out to you! I had a very similar experience, when I was around 13. But in my case I did have people around me who cared and looked out for me, despite the sad and frightening situation.Stress causes crazy dreams. I had epic dreams when I detoxed off of opiates, absolute 6 hour epic dreams. I was in another world which was so real that when I woke up I was confused for about 15 minutes wondering if the reality I had woken-up into was really real?
I've read about the meaning of dreams and my opinion is that they are all true.
Sometimes they are in fact wish-fullfillment. Sometimes they are just silly nonsense. Sometimes they feel like invasions from another dimension, how could I know about those artifacts? .. did I accidentally tune into a frequency that was meant for someone else? Sometimes they are symbols conveying processes that are happening deep in the psyche.
I don't take any of them seriously anymore. The only ones I pay attention to are the recurring ones. There's a dream I've had about 30 plus times now involving a place I worked at over 20 years ago. It's always the same feeling, I'm overwhelmed and people are looking at me frustrated, I'm under a spotlight and panicking because the equipment that has been given to me is substandard and does not work properly and I feel like "This is all my fault"... which then relates to a real moment in my life where my mother had a breakdown and was in tears on the couch looking at me when I was a teenager stating "this is all your fault"... meaning the horrible poverty we were suffering through ( white privilege my ass ) When she said that to me I felt like I weighed a 1000 pounds, and I walked out of the apartment to the train tracks and just walked down the rails utterly devastated. I ended up at a friends place 4 miles later and I had the phone in my hand for about 20 minutes, going back and forth between calling a place for troubled youth to stay at. I was really torn, and really broken-hearted, I had no father, no other parent, no family in the country we were in, and as a teenager my instinct was to call some kind of foster home place because my mother was kind of killing me. I guess that is what that recurring dream is about.
WOW! I can't believe I'm talking to an actual person who owned one of these! I remember reading about them years ago, and even then, they were out of production, but there was supposedly a followup device being made. For years I would check in, and get the same old "coming soon" info about it. I began to think it was a bizarre niche device that was only ever sold to 5 Art Bell fans. But you actually own one! Amazing.Years ago, I bought an expensive device called the "Nova Dreamer." It was supposed to sense when I was having rem eye movements, and then repeatedly blink red lights mounted in an eye mask, so my brain would realize that I was dreaming, and not in the real world. And so this gizmo aided a person in their attempts at lucid dreaming. I'm not sure why, but it never worked well for me. But then I am a deep sleeper.
I remember at the time I bought it, they were selling two types. The more advanced model sold for nearly one thousand dollars, and the "economy model," which I purchased, sold for around $300. I'm surprised that considering 25 years or so have gone by, that they don't have something much more advanced, for less cost.WOW! I can't believe I'm talking to an actual person who owned one of these! I remember reading about them years ago, and even then, they were out of production, but there was supposedly a followup device being made. For years I would check in, and get the same old "coming soon" info about it. I began to think it was a bizarre niche device that was only ever sold to 5 Art Bell fans. But you actually own one! Amazing.
See look, the Novadreamer 2 is still "coming soon"
I would discuss this with your spiritual father/priest. It's likely he will tell you to ignore it though. Saint Nicetas of Novgorod had a demon appear to him under the guise of an angel, and this demon convinced him to stop praying and reading the New Testament. He later did repent, with the help of the prayers of his fellow monastics.
I am curious to try citrus. I have found that after eating meat (not fish) for dinner I will often have a nightmarish dream. Maybe as high as 50% of the time. My theory is that something in the factory farmed meat I am eating (such as the hormones shooting through the animal's body in the moments before it dies a brutal death in a factory farm) are causing this imbalance. I have eaten better sourced meats or meats abroad and not noticed any bad dreams, but this hypothesis needs more testing.I find if I eat certain foods before bed I get more vivid and colorful dreams. Anything citrus usually.
Always been interested in the lucid thing, never been able to do it.
I know some people that can meditate their way into visions or day dreams of sorts.
Good advice. One of the specific things I've prayed to God for is to go the harder route, free of anything extraordinary. I know my vulnerability to pride. I've also asked to be stripped free of any sensible consolations, other than those He wills, since Sensible Love is inferior to Love of the Will. If my path is darkness, free of any good feeling or anything extraordinary, then I know the way is secure.There are countless examples of demons deceiving people through visions. Even genuine visions of angels and Christ can have the effect of inflating the pride of the receiver, causing them to fall away from God. Most monks actively pray to God asking to never recieve visions for these reasons.
I once had a dream like this, too. It was many years ago that I dreamed my friends and I got tricked into working on a farm that turned out to be no farm. It was a sort of brainwashing camp that only I could tell we had to get out of. The dream was a metaphor for how my then friends and I were all insecure, and refusing to face our own inner demons by listening to pretty lies.I have a dream about people going to a camp (not like a Gauntanamo but a bit like a youth detention centre or a low security prison) and being told it will be better there. People seemingly go willingly but I don't know why.
Yeah, what they did with the cat was the opposite of sleep paralysis. You see, when you sleep the brain inhibits the motor portion of your brain. Sometimes it goes haywire, resulting in sleepwalking. They cut that connection in the cat's brain. The opposite is when you wake up but the inhibiting of your motor circuits stays on. That's the sleep paralysis.This is disturbing to me and is accompanied by sleep paralysis which is something I've had issues with since childhood although not for many years.